For the last couple of weeks I have been debating about whether or not I wanted to blog about my wedding anniversary. Part of me just wanted to sweep it under the rug and let it pass without any acknowledgement. But I don’t like hiding from stuff and in my experience, sharing these types of things has only helped me. I should also mention that I was completely taken aback by how emotional I was getting as the anniversary date got closer. WTH was going on?? I 100% want the divorce to happen! I finally realized that my emotional reaction was mainly due to my son and how much he is losing because of the divorce and because of that realization, I decided to write a letter to him about it.
Dear Little B –
Eight years ago today your Daddy and I got married. Understandably this date is no longer going to be celebrated like it once used to be but what will always be celebrated is YOU!
I know that all of the changes that have happened this year are scary and confusing but I want you to know that in this ever-changing world the one thing that will always remain constant is how loved you are! Words can not even express the love I have for you and the amount of happiness that you have brought into my life. And it is not just me that feels this way. You have a huge support system of family and friends that love and care for you!
I hope that you will not let what has happened between Mommy and Daddy affect you negatively or define who you are. Never ever for even one moment think that what happened between us was because of anything you did. For everything your Daddy and I didn’t get right you are and will always be the one thing that we did get right. I also hope that you will learn that families come in many different types and one type is not better or worse than another. What really matters in a family is the amount of love and support that flows through it and I can assure you there is and always will be a surplus of love and support surrounding you.
So always hold your head high. Be proud of who you are and how you became that person. I know that you have a lot of great things in store for you and I look forward to being by your side while you experience them. But don’t grow up to fast, okay? I still want to hang onto my silly loveable little boy for a tad longer.